Love

I've just got to feel it, I believe in... love! It's what we've got...

I may have just misquoted DDR. I guess this freewrite isn't necessarily going to be about love either. I'm tired and I feel like freewriting even though I could easily fall asleep now. "Easily fall asleep now." I could NEVER write those four words a semester ago. Or two semesters ago. Only three semesters ago would that have been true, in Japan. Damn, I miss Japan. But now I think that life spirit is coming back.

And I think I'm going to be shit-tired tomorrow. Happily, I have only 0 classes on Wednesday. Isn't that swell? Gives me a day to recover. That being tomorrow, when I also have to do a shitload of stuff. Um. Maybe I should skip my first math class. No. No mercy will be given from the teacher on grading if I do that. Well, it's math so it's different but you know what I mean.

My brain is starting to zone out and lose its awareness of physical space slightly. It's kind of freaky. I don't know if I haven't ever been in this state or if back when this would happen, it would be more of a constant lack of awareness. That is, back during times when I would be really, really sleep-deprived and only live on whatever nervous energy I had. I didn't even eat that much. How did I survive? It's amazing, the power of neurons. And of determination.

When you have something to live for. And boy, did I have something to live for my eighth semester of high school. I could feel the spring in February, groundhog out or not, I knew an end was coming to the madness, and I could feel the grass growing inside of me thanks to the light of the sun that it finally started to absorb! ...even though it was still snowy outside, and I had stuff to do, but that was it! I had stuff to do! And even if I didn't really participate in Ultimate Frisbee past a few pick-up games, I still lived! I lived life fully! And I was realizing it as it was happening and it was jubilant! And so nice.

That was awhile ago. But I'm feeling it again. I'm feelin' it again and it's wonderful!!!!

Let's make the world a better place.
Alex